26 December 2009

In the fairy tale;

She loves him forever, and he never knows. In the end of the story; He realizes he loves her too, and they ‘live happily ever after’. But that doesn’t happen in real life. In real life; He never sees her that way. And she is forced to move on. He is what he is, there is no changing that. If by some miraculous happening he does decide he wants her in return. It will only result in the inevitable unhappiness of both parties; Making each other miserable until they either give up, or die. That is how that story goes. So her love is misplaced, and she should just move on. But she still loves. He will never love her, because he ‘loves’ someone else. And her heart breaks thinking about it. Why does she still love him? Her life is better and more fulfilling without him. But women don’t make sense. Reasoning has little to do with love. Unconditional love in this respect is harmful. Not helpful to the lover. But no one wants to hear that story. People won’t pay money for an unhappy ending. Unless we as a people could see the silver lining. Her life is better without him. He didn’t even know she loved him. So he’s better off for not knowing. But even in moving on, she’s not truly moving on. In the back of her mind, she knows she’d run to him in an instant. She would be his if only he would ask. She fears she’d give up everything good for him. She would give up happiness to miserable with him. This isn’t merely speculation. She is truly fearful that it is fact. No matter how far she thinks she’s moved on. A mere mention of his name, she’s fawning again. She is stuck back again with her obsession. Her addiction ebbs at her. Her heart breaks again. But she holds it in, so no one knows how bad she’s got it. She tries to keep it to herself because she knows it’s wrong. It’s unhelpful, unhealthy. So she removes him. And he pops in again. Starting the vicious cycle over again. She will never be free, until she can find a way to move on for real.

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