The Hair and Face Routine

My Brother and I

I have been worried lately; about my personal hygiene and beauty regimen. Meaning; I want to look my best for my wedding, but I am not sure if I can currently attain something of that caliber  So: I have been on my new favorite site, OffBeatBride.com tooling around in the forums for some helpful information, provided by off beat persons, such as myself. I have found some helpful information and some relief. Turns out, according to some and many, I am not a total lost cause when it comes to these things.
In the past (growing up) I was chastised many times for not owning a hair dryer and not actually knowing how to use one... But I thought heat wasn't good for your hair. I'm right, they're wrong, air drying is better for your hair than blow drying. On that note; I also don't use a curling iron, nor am I well versed in it's uses. I do own a hair straightener, but it is a good one, and it is ceramic, and I don't normally use it either.
I was told when I was probably 11 or younger that I should never brush my hair when it's wet, by an older daughter of one of my parents friends who had curly hair. However, she did say that I could brush it while it was dry. For the longest time I did actually do just that; I only combed it when it was wet and only brushed it when it was dry. The results was big, poofy, frizzy, terribly bad hair. In more recent years I have foregone brushing all together, except to get the knots out right before I shower. And because of a bottle of some fancy hair care product I was "prescribed" by an overly expensive hair dresser when I was probably 13, I now take a comb to my hair, in the shower, with conditioner in it, to even out distribution of the product.
About four years ago when I was without a home, I could only wash my hair/shower at all about every third day. I had it dyed dark at the time, and my hair took to this nicely. When my living situation got a little more regular, I stuck to not washing it every day, and washed it at best every other day. I did this because I wanted to save money and water. But it worked well for my hair. (I had bangs and a long Joan Jett style, with naturally curly hair; it HAD to be straightened, so I was also saving time.)
While I was living at this location, however, I was informed by a not-so-reliable source that washing your hair all the time is ok, but conditioning is bad. You don't have to wash every day, but conditioner is bad for your hair to use it all the time. I was also told this in a way that made it seem like she thought I was a total A**Hole for not knowing this OBVIOUS piece of trivia (I'm sorry, I'm not the beauty school dropout, you are! And you smell funny too.) I think my hair washing dosage increased about this time. Shortly after that encounter, I was told by a quasi-hippy/hipster friend that washing all the time was NOT good, but you should condition every day... Imagine my confusion. At this point I took all of what everyone told me and threw it away because everyone's full of Sh*t! (*Deep Breaths*)
More recently, in the last 6 months or so, I was reading up on random articles online about having "Younger Looking Hair." I think they were articles for women with gray hair, but I figured the logic was still sound. (I had gone back to not washing every day, but I was not religious about it, nor was I doing for any other reason but because I was most likely too lazy to.) From there I realized that I can save shampoo and help my hair by only shampooing my scalp. And every time I do shampoo, I must condition. I could also save conditioner by only conditioning the roots. (granted I would now use more conditioner than shampoo because I have long, tapered and layered hair and I would no longer be able to make my bottles last an even amount of time.) I also don't always use the comb in the shower anymore. I just comb my conditioner through my hair with my fingers.
I have over the years attempted to use "product" on my hair to assist in the frizz/poof reduction, but not much has made me happy. I was using some curl hydrating stuff, but I couldn't see a notable difference in my hair, having used it so I purchased a different brand of similar product and hate it, so I'm not using anything now.
Since my discoveries in my most recent hair hygiene research, I have found a few more things that can assist in long, happy, healthy, affordable hair. Besides the actually OBB forum (which you can't view unless you're a member) I was also directed to a few helpful links (and then I spent several hours on You-Tube watching related videos.. or at least it felt like hours.) One of these links was super useful, because I do have curly hair, and I have seen it at its best. The CurlyGirlMethod sounds good to me. And I could probably incorporate most of those things into my daily/bi-daily/every 3rd day routine. I actually ran out of my old shampoo this morning so was able to go and purchase a not too expensive sulfate free shampoo and conditioner justifiably. It wasn't too much more than what I was already spending on "good" shampoo and conditioner.
I was also directed to a few product sites, one of which caught my eye by their claims of being curly hair experts. Oiudad looks pretty legit, and a lot of the videos I watched today were reviews of said product. It looks like it is a worthwhile product, however I desperately hate it when I look like a poodle. Yes, my hair can get that curly. I don't plan on ever buying a fancy hair dryer. And I can't imagine I'd ever be one to spend lots of time putting product in my hair. I can't actually see myself using a product line like this, simply because of the cost of it.
I wonder about organic products, if they're worth a shot. Or if there's an at home remedy that can be made like this skin care method I'm keen to try out. Which is another thing I've been researching. (but not as much yet.) Skin care. I've started researching skin care because I'm 26 and I still don't understand what I'm doing. "Wash your face before bed and in the morning" "Rinse with Hot water." "Splash with cold water." "Use a warm wash cloth." "Massage with an exfoliating brush." "NEVER use your fingers." "Wash every day." "Buy proactive." "IF it doesn't work, you're doing it wrong." "Use Noxema." Use this, use that, don't ever, this always, Hot, Cold, Ice, Mask, Brush, Cloth, Oil. Oil is bad, oil is bad, oil is bad. "Use your faces natural oils to your benefit."... I'm sure there is some wisdom in there somewhere, but how does one make sense of it when it's all a bunch of hullabaloo? This Oil Cleansing Method sounds like it has some substantial backbone on it, and based on what I've read of "consumer" reviews, it's worth trying.
After I figure out what I'm going to do about my hair and face, I'll start looking into the rest of my body; skin care.

All the things we know so far

The mister and I were able to sit down together today and talk through our expectations of the wedding. I let him go first. Turns out his idea of what will happen, isn't that far off from mine. I did have to fill in all the holes where he didn't have any idea of what would happen, but overall, it was the same. Which is good. We tried to talk about the ceremony itself, which was both good and bad, too. Good because, there too we are on the same page. Bad because, neither of us have any ideas of what we actually want. But we were able to talk through and make a general schedule of events for the day.

We'll have the rehearsal dinner the night before and hopefully set up the chairs. No ideas for this one yet. After which the Mr. and I will part ways. He'll most likely stay with his groomsmen (If he picks any by then). I'll stay wherever I plan on staying when it gets closer. So we won't see each other until the ceremony.

2pm - Guests arrive - We'll start off with a cocktail "hour" to ensure that everyone arrives before the ceremony, and gives them a chance to mingle. FH can choose to attend this or not, I'm leaving that up to him. I will be getting ready. There will be both beer and wine available. As well as various plates of foods; Cheese, Crackers, Meats, Fruits, Nuts... During this time we'll have background music going that consists of big-band styles of music and variations thereof.

2:30pm - Ceremony - We're planning on having a transition song so that people will know that we're seriously starting the ceremony now and they have to find their seats. Right now we have our transition song listed as The Final Countdown by Europe. (Teehee!) The song is drastically different than what would be playing prior, and it's long enough for people to find seats. I'm planning on saying something in the "program" about the transitional song, and I'm working on having ushers to ush. We'll be doing the spiral aisle that I've seen here and the smaller center row of seats will be reserved for specific family members. The rest will be free-for-all style. The reserved seats will have exclamation points attached to them, along with the name of whom it's been reserved for. The rest will have Questions marks. (The punctuation will be an ongoing theme throughout and is a throwback to a WoW reference, or MMO questing in general.) We'll only have one processional song, which will be my favorite; Sleep Walk by Santo and Johnny. I only have 2 bridesmaids and no one else to walk down the aisle accept me, escorted by my dad. Like I said before I'm not sure yet about the ceremony, but I would like it, if at all possible, for when the officiant says; "You may kiss the bride." For the music from Legend of Zelda to play (that short little bit whenever Link gets fancy new treasures... Don't know what it's called.) Then there'd be a recessional that we haven't chosen yet and the ceremony part will be over. In the little "program" do-hicky I'd explain that people can take their chairs and move them wherever they'd like throughout the room.

3pm-ish - Cocktail Party/ Reception - While the wedding party takes photos and things people will be allowed to get more comfortable. We'll have specialty cocktails available alongside the beer and wine, as well as a variety of special hor de vours. When the wedding party returns, the dancing will ensue. We know we want a first dance; Lucky by Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Calliet (sp). We'll have a Mother Son dance for him and his mom, which he gets to choose the song, or let her. My dad is choosing the music for our Father Daughter Dance, which he wants to be super fun and unexpected, and would like for me to choreograph. And a Dollar Dance, because we've liked that at every wedding we've been to that has had one.

5-6pm - Not sure if we want a two or three hour reception, but I'm sure I'll want to be done by 6 at the latest. I will enlist the help of specific people to clean up, because I know I won't want to.

The next day we're going to have a brewery visit day. We'll probably go to Milwaukee. I like the idea of the Sprecher Brewery, because they brew soda as well as beer and many of our guests don't drink alcohol. But I'd like to make sure that the tour is worth it before we choose. I'm not sure what else we're going to do yet, but it will be September in Milwaukee, so I have time to figure it out.

Then Monday; We leave on honeymoon! I'm letting the Mr plan this all by himself.

That's just the general outline that we've come up with so-far. Then I realized that we don't actually have the venue down in stone. But I'm 95% certain that the place I'm thinking of is the place we'll have it. The building is owned by a close personal friend of my dads, and since I've started asking about doing my wedding at his building, he's gotten super excited about offering his building for weddings, and is talking about putting in a kitchen off of the hall we'd use for festivities. We've also established that we only know who is on my side of the wedding party and no one else official. We have some options for officiants, but aren't drawn to any of them. They're all friends of family members. We don't have a photographer yet, but we can look into them once we're both out in WI, so Way after my move. We don't have a caterer, but I do have some ideas for foods. I'm going to have to look into that. My grandmother or my cousin both do wedding cakes, I just have to find out if either of them are willing and if we even want a wedding cake. I don't know about hair, nails, or makeup yet, but I have lots of time for that. I have my dress, it just needs to be altered, which won't start happening until 4 months prior. The bridesmaids have an idea of what I want them to get for their dresses (Cocktail dresses in any of our wedding colors with shoes to match). I have an idea of what all male party members are going to wear (Suits; Black, Gray or Navy. I'll probably buy them ties and they have to wear an appropriate colored shirt). I am making my own bouquets and decorations. I'm making the Save the Dates and Invitations. I've already made the website. We've ordered my "proper" engagement ring (FH chose it himself)... I can't think of anything else.

I think I'm trying to plan everything that I can before I move. We don't know yet when FH will be able to move too.

Some days I'm not me.

Some days I feel pretty. Some days I don't. Some days I just feel like a person. Others I feel like I look like a miserable heap. Some days I look in the mirror and then think I look worse. Some days I look and am surprised by me. Some days I'm good. Others I'm bad. Some day's I'm beyond miserable. Some days I'm depressed, heart-broken or just plain sad. It's an odd feeling when I think of how I look, and my reflection proves me wrong. "Oh, that's me. I am pretty." My shadow lies and my peripheral tells half truths. I like it best when how I feel being me, is good, and how I look matches that. It doesn't always happen. I'd like if it would happen more. But I'll take what I can get. Each day that is good, builds a little bit to my confidence. When I'm confident, I feel even better, and I can better make it a point to invest time, energy, or happiness into being me. When that happens, I can be a better me. In theory; If I could keep this up, I'd be the best me I can be in no time. But then I have bad days. And in the end, I'm still just me. Can't be any me-er than I already am.

And my name is...?

I considering a name change. When I am married, my current names for my blogs will no longer make any sense. Van will no longer be a part of my name, unless I choose to keep my maiden name. I am also considering going only by my game tag and my first name. I have no idea yet what my blog's names will become at that point, but I am considering it. I may give up the idea all together though and simply keep the blogs as is and let them remain beyond confusing to the masses. Input please, I keep going round an round with this on my own. What would I rename my blogs to if I did change? The current names are RawCeeyena (which I would keep), Van's train of thought (aka; vanscreative.blogspot.com), DesignerVan, HealthyVan, and LiteraryVan. Ceeyena is my gamer tag, and if you know me, you know my first name. If you've read any of this blog before, you may have realized that I don't care for my soon to be married name, but I'll get over it. Ideas?

I'd like one ring to rule them all... but he wants 3.

I have been looking for rings lately. A wedding band for him, and a more proper engagement ring for me. We need to at least get the engagement ring before I move away. So I brought it up to the Mr. yesterday. Apparently he has a few preconceived ideas about the rings that he failed to tell me previously. I don't have a problem with him having his own wants and needs, I actually welcome that. But he's terrible at explaining, and I can't figure out why he wants what he wants. We've made an appointment with each other to choose rings on Friday, but I'm still not sure I understand. Are there specific things that are supposed to happen with rings? What if I don't want to wear more than one ring? I've actually mentioned this to him before. Why should we spend money on an engagement ring that's going to be put away in a box as soon as we're married for the rest of eternity? He wants our wedding bands to match, what If I don't want the same ring he wants? He also says that I can't use my engagement ring as a wedding band as well. He specifically said that. The wedding band must be the ring that he puts on my finger the day of the wedding, and not something I had been wearing before. I'm not completely opposed to the idea of matching rings, and could consider the others... I just don't understand why, all of a sudden, he has these opinions about what's right and wrong procedure for rings. Is there specific protocol that I'm missing, something that I should consider? Sometimes I wish he had a longer attention span.

Name Changing Blues

I have been thinking about this since long before we got engaged... it's going to be a real pain in my ass to change my name. Not just for legal reasons, but for personal reasons as well. I don't go by my first name, and haven't for at least 8 years. I go by a variation of my last name. That's my current last name. And I've always known that I would change my last name when I got married, but I never envisioned it being a last name that I disliked so much. So I, myself, am having trouble wrapping my head around not going by my current nickname anymore (which in and of itself is already a hassle to explain to people), and going back to my real first name (which people butcher so much, which caused me to go by my nickname in the first place). I could keep my nickname and hyphenate my last name with his last name, but my current name is already far too long as is. I have 2 first names, a long middle name and a two part last name, and his last name is actually longer than my current last name. So fully written out my name is currently 28 characters long. If I change it to his it will be 30 characters long. If I hyphenate it will become 39 characters plus punctuation. But that's not even the real issue. The real issue is I don't want to go back to my first name, but my nickname will no longer make sense. "It's short for my last name." will no longer suffice. It'll be: "It's short for my maiden name." That'll give 'em all goggely 'you're a crazy one, aren't you' eyes. *deep breath* Am I crazy? Is there a way around this? Or am I just going to have to go back to my first name and have people butcher my name for the rest of my life... "Thank you so much for letting me know I'm pronouncing my own name wrong, I had no idea it's pronounced the way you just said it and no the way it's been said for 26 years." Did I mention I don't like his last name? Does that make me a bad person? Can we change our last name to his gamer last name? I like that one.

Which reminds me, I have to throw my online personality name in there as well... CHIT!

Why Yes I am an Off Beat Bride!

It gets kinda old every time I state the fact that it's been a while since my last post, so from now on; I'll try to refrain from pointing it out. Hopefully this will be the last time. I have been posting "Journal Entries" on the OffBeatBride website, but they are almost completely wedding related. Except for the most recent one or two. Which deal with factors that have come about due to wedding planning and life in general. Instead of posting each on individually, I will post them all in this entry. Then I'll (Probably) start posting here, from here on in for things not to do specifically with the wedding. And probably those as well... So without further ado. From first to most recent; my OffBeathBrideTribe posts:

Choosing the answers to People's questions. (1)
I have been sitting in this same spot on this couch for at least a week. I'm surprised my laptop hasn't burned through my legs yet. This wedding planning stuff is keeping me busy though, I feel like I'm being productive. So far this week, we've decided on our more specific, general color scheme, a theme and added on to our wedding party. Actually this site helped me narrow down how to describe what I want, and pinpoint what exactly that was. So: Drumroll please... Our colors are Bright Sunflower Yellow, Deep Dark Blue leaning more towards green than purple, and all shades of Gray (with a hint of blue if it must.) Now I know that sounds rather specific, and I've been battling with it for a couple days now because I've been afraid of what everyone will think and how they'll react to it *Deep breaths* But then I realized I could give out this more neurotic color palette and ask people involved to stick to it as closely as humanly possible (within reason, of course). I was also afraid of choosing the colors I wanted because everyone said it wouldn't mesh well with the weather or the environment. Pah-lease! The other thing that helped say it's okay to define my colors so narrowly is the theme/style I chose. I want an 8bit Cocktail Party Wedding. The Puese (Fiancee) and I are both fans of video games, he's more of a super-fan than I am, but we do play on almost a daily basis. Mash that up with my desire to have everyone dress up, and my affinity for vintage "Finer things" fashions, I came up with the theme we now have. Now I'm going to take a break for looking at DIY tutorials for creating flowers and decorations and play some Zelda to get a better scope on what I want those flowers to look like. In the end it's our wedding and we'll do what we want.

Talking through my issues
So I had an emotional/mental breakdown last night. I'm still trying to figure out what triggered it, and why it happened, but I do think I have some contributing factors nailed down.
One; I'm not working. I can't find work. I have loads of time on my hands. I have plenty of things I'd like to do with that time. I cannot feasibly choose to do those things. Well, why not? Because we're supposed to move at the end of the year. I don't want to create anything else that would add to the number and amount of things we'll have to transport across the country. So I feel useless.  - To combat this, I could probably have Some arts and crafts time, and make some things just to see if I can. I don't have to make them for the wedding, and I can then get rid of them before we move.
Two; I feel uncomfortable in this space. At the beginning of this year it was established or determined, that my terrible job was more destructive to me than it was worth. So I quit my job and moved in with my BF. A few months earlier he'd moved back from up north and in to his brother's house (Which is a duplex with his parent's house). So it was us in his brother's house, ultra close to his parents. This paired with my personal issues with personal space and social awkwardness makes me not want to get into anyone else's space and do anything "Productive" because it might get shunned/cut short/or something.  - I have no idea how to combat this, but If I rearranged my room for the day, I might be able to find the space to do a craft.
Three; I'm doing this all alone. Because we haven't moved yet, all of the people I would enlist to assist me, don't live anywhere close to me. They are thousands of miles away. My mother is here, but she works full time and is having marital issues with her new husband. I suppose I could try and find out if any of my friends here would help me out, but I don't have a car, so I can't drive anywhere. And this is Southern California, no one can be bothered to step outside of their own bubbles and come to me.
I'm sure there's more to my breakdown. But I'm a bit better today, and Fiancee doesn't work today so I can try talking it out with him. He really is the best. He got me a chili-cheeseburger and watched the Iron Giant with me last night; Two of my favorite things.

Whirlwind of WoW ideas on my Anniversary
I am feeling much better now. I am no longer curled up in a ball sobbing and freaking out. Yesterday, to thwart my own reasoning, I pulled my arts and crafts stuff out of it's storage place and set to work trying to create those things that I've found to create. I've been staring at DIY flower creations and have been feeling hopeless about making any of them because I don't want to make anything just so I have to move it later. But DUH! I don't have to make the real ones now. So I set out o make as many paper flowers as I could out of construction paper. I then remade some of them with a video game twist, by either adding a black line to them so they looked cell shaded or by squaring them off so they looked like large pixels. I successfully made 6 different flowers. And I think some of them are sturdy enough to make a bouquet our of. Others are good for other purposes, like boutonnieres. So there's a sense of accomplishment right there. I just need to make sure I can make them out of more sturdy/attractive paper then construction paper, and that my colors will work with my altered designs. But sitting here staring at them (paired with a little talk the Mr. and I had last night about what we want, and what inspires us.) I've been on a roll of fun ideas for our 8 bit Cocktail party.
We both play WoW and other games, and we both liked the idea of the quest, but were unsure how to incorporate it without it feeling out of place. So today; I decided that each of our mailing pieces can be a quest (Invitation, Save the date, Directions card) which would have their own corresponding "quest turn in" (Reply card, the ceremony itself, the bar). Then to go along with that (haven't worked out all of the specifics yet.) But instead of a full bar, because we can't afford that. We would have a specialty cocktail bar. We can create our own cocktails for the event or rename some standard ones. Then for a cocktail menu, we can have the ingredients listed out like item stats. The quest could also be a good way to make sure everyone knows what's going on when (I've been to plenty of weddings where people, or at least I, don't know what's going on next.)
I may need to mock a few of these things up and talk it through with a few people before I set my heart on it though. But all in all, it could be fun and has the potential to be classy.

Hi there; I'm ME.
After reading several posts today, I realized I too had not appropriately introduced myself.

Hi! My name in JohannaJoy. But I go by Van. (For family and people I've known my whole life, or at least since HS call me Johanna). Van is short for my last name. Current last name. *Squeee." I am currently unemployed and pretty much unemployable in our current local and situation. I do, however, have a degree in graphic design. I have been blogging since 2007, but when I realized no one really reads my blog, I kinda only post when I really have something specific to rant about, and I have the time to do it. I'm socially awkward and uber quirky. Usually I'm the odd one out in my family, and my "friends" (Those people whom I've spent time with, but never talk to me... Welcome to L.A. people) know me as being the sporadic nonsense driven, eclectic, crazy one. I don't know if any or all of those things are true, but it's better than being the lame one. I am a nerd enthusiast... I may need to explain this later.
My Fiance is my best friend, my soul-mate, if I were to believe in that, and all around favorite person in the world. Kevin. He's been married before (which I was once friends with both him and his ex-wife. No, I didn't break up their marriage) which sometimes bugs me, but only when he talks about it. He's a game-nerd and beer enthusiast. He's got personality up to whazoo, has amazing ideas, and truly loves me and understands me.
We have both known we wanted to get married since very early in our dating relationship (For him it may have been the day it started...He's said some things) For the past 7+months we've been talking about getting married but nothing has happened. When we first started talking about it, he said next June. So it's become and ongoing joke with us to say. "Wait; are you proposing?" then the other will get a happy derp face... Finally; we were in WI visiting my family and at my best friends wedding, and I asked him why we weren't engaged yet.(I didn't want to plan something until it was official because of my family and their noses getting stuck in my business all the time) So; long story shorter, we bought a ring and have set a date for 1 year after the "proposal" to the date. (I already wrote a blog post about the proposal and don't feel like rewriting it.)
More about us: I'm 26 and he just turned 30. We're planning to move out of Southern California back to the small town I grew up in, in Wisconsin and have the wedding there. Our colors are Sunflower Yellow, and Gray Scale with an accent of Deep Sea Blue (yellow and gray are my favorites). Our theme is called the 8 Bit Cocktail Party, which basically means the whole thing will be a cocktail party with a ceremony in the middle with a video game twist. I don't like real flowers because they die, so I'll be DIYing the floral arrangements. I don't like real diamonds and all that that imply's, so my current engagement ring is a $12.50 ring from the Icing in a setting I like, coated in clear nail polish so I don't get a green finger. I've decided that I NEED my 2 best friends in my wedding party. 1 gets me and keeps me calm, the other is an organizational freak, in a good way and understands that this will be my wedding. Which is good, because Kevin wants his Best friend and his brother. The only issue with that is; I'm not sure I have any other friends than that, so only family will attend the wedding, and my family is a giant mash up, hodgepodge of drudgery and whatnot. We play video games together. Last week we got our Alliance characters up to level 80 (Which is the last expansion I have). So we just made Horde and are working on getting them up there as well. I LOVE Minecraft, we have our own server. I like to think I have a little style. I enjoy retro styles from the 20s-early 60's but can't really take all the hippy stuff (mostly) even though my personal ideals are a bit more in line with that than not. Lastly; I'm a firm believe in Buying local. Supporting my local economy before anything, and then If I can be eco-conscious, Do IT!
I've rambled on now; Thanks for reading.

Just a few fears...
I realized the other day, at a Halloween party, (again) that I am extremely socially awkward. Which led me to thinking...
1) Nobody ever comes to my parties, why would anyone come to my wedding. For instance, my last birthday party, only 2 people came to. The first came incredibly early, I hadn't even gotten ready yet. The other came 3 hours late and stayed for half an hour.
2) When I'm around a lot of people I don't know at all, or don't know well, I shut down.
My fear now is that the only people who will come are going to be the Mr's guests. Then I'll shut down, maybe cry and little, and end up not enjoying myself at all.

He Finally talked to his parents and other things.
 Yay! So the Mr. finally spoke to his parents. Which was like pulling teeth for me. (I mean seriously; I spoke to both of my parents in person, and neither of them live close. We live in the other half of a duplex as his). Granted; I know that he didn't want to tell them because of how they would react. They know we're engaged, but he needed to tell them we're planning on getting married after we move to Wisconsin from California, so the wedding will NOT be here in SoCal. And Lo; they reacted just the way he expected them to. Super negatron. At least he's told them, and now they know, and the fretting over telling them is now over. So now I am just waiting for them to give me their quest list requests.

In other news, I've sent out thank you notes to everyone that's agreed to help me plan the wedding. I put together notes for the bridesmaids, both my parents, and my MOH's mother. I'm super excited about them. I made them look like a quest from WoW! and I aged the paper myself. I used regular printer paper, and envelopes I already had. The only thing I had to buy was the string that is my wedding colors and the postage, which was 5 stamps. I like it enough that I will most likely make all the rest of our stationary this way. I'll probably put together a tutorial when I make the next thing. Yay! So the Mr. finally spoke to his parents. Which was like pulling teeth for me. (I mean seriously; I spoke to both of my parents in person, and neither of them live close. We live in the other half of a duplex as his). Granted; I know that he didn't want to tell them because of how they would react. They know we're engaged, but he needed to tell them we're planning on getting married after we move to Wisconsin from California, so the wedding will NOT be here in SoCal. And Lo; they reacted just the way he expected them to. Super negatron. At least he's told them, and now they know, and the fretting over telling them is now over. So now I am just waiting for them to give me their quest list requests.
In other news, I've sent out thank you notes to everyone that's agreed to help me plan the wedding. I put together notes for the bridesmaids, both my parents, and my MOH's mother. I'm super excited about them. I made them look like a quest from WoW! and I aged the paper myself. I used regular printer paper, and envelopes I already had. The only thing I had to buy was the string that is my wedding colors and the postage, which was 5 stamps. I like it enough that I will most likely make all the rest of our stationary this way. I'll probably put together a tutorial when I make the next thing.

Moving 2,000 miles alone
I may have just realized why I'm in the funk that I'm in. It's something that I think I have known in the back of my mind for some time, and I just didn't want to accept as the best possible option for the Mr's and my current predicament. Let's take a step back a moment to help clarify...
We (FH and I) have been planning to move out of Southern California. We have also been planning to have our wedding in Wisconsin. Ergo; we're planning to move to Wisconsin. Not really brain surgery that. However, the getting there is proving a bit more elusive of a task. FH works Part-time Retail I have been out of work since March of this year. We need to save up enough money to relocate over 2,000 miles away. So that's the cost of a movie van/truck, 1st/last mo's rent on whatever we can find, plus other moving expenses. I have been looking for work for a long while here, but in this "Wonderful" economy; No such luck. So we're still living paycheck to paycheck and not making any headway, and at this rate; it won't be until after the wedding, and then some, before we can move... and that would be a step backwards in a way. SO! The only way I can see for us to get out there, is for me to go out there now, and for him to follow me when we have enough. I have family out there that I can stay with for a while. There are more opportunities out there to find work, and the cost of living is much much less (one reason for us wanting to move in the first place.) I have not been wanting this to be the choice, because I don't want to go alone. The amount of time that will be in between myself and FH coming out there is unknown. But we do have enough money right now for me to fly out there.
In a perfect world, this is how it would work: I book my flight for the week after Thanksgiving. Then; while we wait for me to go, We go through all of my stuff in storage and sort out what we will need for him to bring with him, and what we can get rid of. I will also start applying to jobs out there in the city where my aunt lives. Then; when I'm earning as much as FH is now, we can look into renting our own place and he would come out with our stuff.
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But wait! My dad just called and had an idea. I can come ASAP. (My dad is there, but not an option to stay with) He will help me find a car and FH and I a place to stay. So we can find places to work at the same time. THEN; my mom can bring our stuff out to us. (My mom would much rather be out there, and takes any excuse to venture that way.) My dad says he'll ask around about places, jobs and vehicles. If we did it that way, we'd both be out there round about the same time. AND we would have Christmas in the SNOW!
But then I got off the phone and realized that my dad is always full of good ideas, and the reason my mom and I are back in CA is because he has almost zero follow through (BUT THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE). So back to my depressy idea of going alone. (FH and I have barely been apart more than a few days since October of last year, and not more than a day since probably March.
All this to say; it's really difficult to worry about all these things, and plan a wedding from 2,000 miles away with our present circumstances. If anyone has ideas I'm missing; I'd like to hear them.

A hold on planning and a checklist of things to do
We may have to put a hold on wedding planning. We've decided that I'm going (Moving 2,000 miles). But before I go there are some things that we have to get done. Some of these things we've already accomplished.
- Buy a plane ticket. I'd like to leave November 29th.
- Find a place to stay. I've called my aunt, and close friend to see if I can stay with them for a while. My dad is searching for apartments and rooms for rent for me as well.
- Design the wedding website. I won't really have time once I'm gone to work on designing the site, I will, however find time to update it. So I finished designing it this morning. It's not as fancy as any of those pre-made wedding website thingies, but I wanted it to match our stationary. The only way to accomplish that was to put it together myself.
- Re-pack all of my things from my last apartment and have them ready to move. We started this yesterday. We went through all of my kitchen and dinning room stuff, and were able to consolidate it all into One and a Half boxes by way of donation to both thrift stores and people we know. We still have the rest of my stuff and all of his stuff to go through. Luckily, most of my stuff was kitchen stuff and clothes.
- Pack. Since I'm going alone, and will be flying, I have to be able to consolidate my belongings into what I'll need only.
- Find a job. I need to earn as much as possible as soon as possible, so that FH can come be with me.
- Gather guest list requests from my mom and his parents.
I don't think I'm forgetting anything. :/