Food poisoning is a strange awakening. It opens your eyes because you know you should eat, but nothing that is unhealthy, sounds good to eat. This is at least true for me. Actually, nothing really sounds good to me right now. But the healthy things don't look as unappetizing as those things which aren't as healthy. I do know that this will pass, and eventually I will choose the things that taste good, over the things that are good.
I wish that I could get an awakening for other things. Like; not want things that are bad for me. Or at least have the willpower to say no to them. In the very least not miss people who are no good for me. Not want to be friends with them still. There is a reason that we don't communicate anymore. We usually only remember the good things when reminiscing. Only when we reflect a bit too long may we remember those things that drove us apart.
It's strange when you don't know what it is. But then you see those things after thinking about it. But they didn't bother you then, why should they bother you now. On another leg; there are times when you're like; 'Why did that bother me? So stupid!" But it must have bothered you enough to have said something then. Or maybe you did go overboard and behave rashly. I do tend to overreact sometimes. My once 'good friends' learned to deal with it accordingly, until (I suppose) they got fed up and discontinued association with me. I do have the tendency to place the blame upon myself when I have no idea what's happened. Why are we not friends anymore. Why, when I say hi; do you completely ignore my existence?
I would continue this thought, but the smell of food is making me feel sick once more. That or I'm getting emotional, so my subconscious is being a wise ass in attempts to get me off this track of thoughts. CHoochooChoot!
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