Drunk and Unclean

I rarely do this anymore; and the thought just occurred to me; if for no other reason than this, one shouldn't drink until they're drunk... Hygiene. There is no drunk person (that I've ever come in contact with) who is passing out, falling over, stupid drunk who says; "Hey guys, wait a minute, I need to wash up before going to bed." No! They just plop. Depending on the level of drunk, they may consider this as an option. But if they are wholly drunk; ain't gonna happen. Personally I hate the feeling of waking up in an aura of funk. Besides the funk of your body, stomach, and head disagreeing with the amount of alcohol you consumed the previous night. The added funk of fuzzy teeth and unwashed face is enough to send a person to the porcelain god and regret their actions. Then again; that may only be if you think about it too much. Either way the unclean feeling probably contributes to, what we call, the hangover.

Creating Characters Based on Pictures

Sometimes I have great ideas. Sometimes I just feel like being creative, but cannot find an outlet. Sometimes, I have no idea how to motivate myself to do/be what I would like to. Sometimes I wonder why I can't sleep, if I'm not going to be able to be productive if I stay awake. So I'm going to try and put this insomnia to use right now. It is after 2am, and I'm going to put together a character. I've decided to form/mold/create a character for an RP I'm going to be a part of. However, I don't even know where to start. Developing their personality takes time and precision, and you have to know where you're going before you start off with these sorts of things, or your character will change part of the way through and everyone will be like: who is this?! Generally, for these sorts of characters, I first find an image to stem my inspiration from. Most RP's I've been a part of have called for an appearance, and a photo/drawing/image of some sort is the easiest way to go about this. I have, on a number of occasions found an image via Google Search and photo-shopped it to look just right. Why? Because while I'm looking at images, I'm ruling out some and considering others, so before an image is even found, the character is being developed. Then you need to find a personality that exudes those traits you've now founded in your head and then combine the two and create something fantastic... or not so fantastic; however you're inclined. After all of this though, a name needs to be chosen. I like to give my names meaning, or choose names with meaning rather, but then the names of all of my characters turn out sounding foreign or old or just plain strange. But then again, I don't really care for everyday names... not that they're bad, I just don't want my characters named them... Unless of course, everyday is what we're going for. After we have a name we actually develop their personality through either a personality section or a biography section, or both. Yes, these are both usually rather short, I don't think I've every written more than a paragraph for each. But because they're so short, each word that goes into it, must have meaning and, for me at least, the ideas presented have so much more background implied in them than is needed to be said. The worst thing about this process is: You put all of this time and energy into creating your perfect character for the given plot and then you have to wait until you can use it. Worst case scenario; the RP's never started and your character lingers in a feed to get passed over until it's forgotten and never used. To avoid this; I save all of my characters for future use. This has come in handy a time or two. I'm sure the characters appreciate it. 

Choosing a Dream

Recently, in one of my more vegetative states, I found myself perusing Netflix in an attempt to entertain myself. What I stumbled upon that day; still has me thinking, nay; it has me pining for dance once again. The Australian TV show Dance Academy is the only thing that caught my attention that day; so I proceeded to watch 12 episodes in a row. It made me remember all those feelings I had towards dance and ballet, and had me questioning why I stopped. I can't for the life of me come up with a good enough reason why I would have. Only reasons that are blaming others for my own misfortunes. Granted; they were legitimate reasons. But if I had wanted to dance as much as I thought I did; those reasons wouldn't have prevented me from finding a way to do it. So what was the actual cause of the discontinuation of my passion? Probably the same reason that plagues me to this day to make anything of myself or keeps me from obtaining any sort of passion. I simply don't believe in myself. I don't actually think I'm capable of being good enough at something to pursue it fervently. The deep and foreboding feeling that no one will think I'm good enough, or that I simply won't be more than mediocre circumvents the desire to want to accomplish. The hope that is fueled by the passion is squashed my by low self esteem and those who would see me fail. So in the end it is ultimately my own fault. No matter what anyone said to me so that I didn't feel good enough, worthy enough, or special enough; I didn't pursue it. I let their words get to me, and now only I have nothing to show for it. 
So perhaps now, the recognition of this, today, will help me to change? What I can do today is choose to be better than someone else may think I am. And if anyone says that I can't (Even me) The first thing out of my mouth should be "Why not?"

Marvel-ously Addicting Game

I'm not actually a fan of wasting time. I do appreciate the enjoyment of time. However, I do find myself continually back at the wasting bit. It's probably a good thing that my newest time waster was designed to be child friendly, and in being so; only has so much available for the obsessive time-wasters personality. On the Marvel Super Hero Squad, the most I can do is visit each of the 4 zones, and do each daily mission, as each of my current 5 characters. You may be thinking; that's plenty of time being wasted. But let me assure you: It could most definitely be more than that. My next goal is to gain a 6th member of my squad. And this is no small task. As far as I can see; the only way to gain more members is to buy them. And the only ways to buy them is to win enough gold on the wheel, or spend enough silver. And my daily wheel has already rendered me all the gold I can get, as well as some extra silver. The only way to spin this wheel is to spend tickets, and you get tickets from dealing with the antagonists in each of the four zones... I HAVE HUNDREDS of Tickets!!! And then you collect those translucent white stars, and 10 of those white stars earns you one more silver. The issue here is the bad guys and the white stars return so frequently that it's neigh impossible to pass something up. "OH! Just one more flame guy." "Just one more bubblegum machine." "Just one more UFO." Do you see how this could drag on? 
Now we come to the point. I will eventually get board of doing this. With only 2 different missions, to play only 2 different ways (without friends online) there is a limit to how many times you want to repeat the same old same old. So: I've logged off for today. But I will most definitely be back at it again tomorrow. Why? because there's a daily mission that changes every day. That daily mission, as well as finding specific daily things for each character in each zone has me hooked. MY GOSH! it's only day 2. 

Butter Flavored Oatmeal

Why is it that the 'weight control' oatmeal from Quaker tastes like butter? I picked up, and ultimately purchased this specific variety pack because of the flavors on it. I wanted Banana Bread flavored oatmeal. Is that too much to ask? I wonder if they made them taste like butter to give those people who would normally add a pound of butter to their oatmeal the kicks they were looking for, without the guilt of a pound of butter. Then again, maybe it's just gross. But seriously; I now have a box of oatmeal that I'm disinclined to eat because I don't want a bowl full of butter flavored mush oats. I will probably end up eating it... maybe add some fruit to it or something. Good thing it keeps... I will NOT be partaking any time soon. 

Mac'n'"ChiliDog"Cheese

I know that I've been trying to be healthier and that some food choices may need to be denied for that purpose, however; I am certain that had I missed this; I would not be in the elated mood that I find myself in. This! This, is amazing... Yesterday, Puddle made some chili, which was really good. Perhaps you saw the blog; Mr. Peanut and I grilling up some hot dogs, which we topped with the delicious chili. While we were doing this; Mr. Peanut and I were joking around and came up with Mac'n'ChiliCheese Dog or ChiliCheeseDog Mac... So today, when Mr. Peanut made us Mac'n'Cheese with Hot Dogs and spinach, I thought of it again. Now it's about dinner time and I am combining these two great delicacies and have Mac'n'ChiliDogCheese. Tadah!!!! And I must say; It is so very tasty.  Just enough of this and bit of that. And it wasn't hard to make. Equal parts of the chili and the mac'n'cheese, 'tis tantalizing my taste buds. Nom nom nom. That is all for now... after Dinner; I'm going to figure out my screen printer. Yay!

Itsy bitsy lunch time special

I don't know if the old wives tale is true or not, if it is in fact, just an old wives tale, but this post is being written in that delicate time frame between eating and swimming. I'm not really concerned about the wisdom being truthful or not. I just determined that now was a great time to write a blog. Besides; if it is true... I'd like to choose the healthier option. Don't want all that previous healthy to go to waste. Fish, asparagus, and yellow squash at least seem healthy to me anyway. This choice for staying away from the pool may also be accompanied by the fact that today's bathing suit choice is a bit teeny weenier than I would have desired. Alas; I am doing laundry and the Itsy Bitsy Teeny Weeny Yellow Polka Dot Bikini is the only one left to wear, that technically fits. Yes, it is my size. But it's a very small swimming suit and not one I'd desire to be seen in public in. I know the pool is only in the back, and it's the middle of a weekday. But still... one can't be too careful. Maybe the trees are spies and wish to humiliate me in the midst of my sunbathing splendor. Yet; I still do plan to go out and swim. And whilst I dry off, perhaps I can finish the last 5 chapters and Epilogue of the book I'm reading. Then perhaps, I will also be able to review it in it's entirety today on Literary Van. That would be good. This would also invite me to start reading the second book in the King Raven Trilogy; Scarlet. Plus... Avalon is a great book so far, and I cannot fathom how he's going to wrap everything up in the last few chapters, being as it stands now. Eeek! So Exciting!!! Okay, enough of this, time to step out of the locker, I'm headed to the pool.

Moore or Les I'm not a Morning Person

This morning I was Soooooooooooooooooo tired. But Mr. Peanut had to get up at 6:30, so we both did. We may have been slow to start, but we did start, and shortly into our morning, we were participating with full enthusiasm. Yay us! I am considering keeping track of measurements to see if this early exercise thing works like the poster said it would... but then again; I don't want to work myself up and then get disappointed if it doesn't. Perhaps it should be enough to know that it's the healthy choice. 
Speaking of choices; Today I choose to be productive. However, my productivity, in part, depends on others... so said productivity has halted for the time being. Although; I did choose to write a blog whilst I wait on them to do their part. I will also post anther entry into "Les & Moore" which, for some reason, I have not been posting online, even though I do have pages written out on paper. Then again, I will run out of pages to type if I don't also add to the written pages too. I am mostly just stuck on where to take it. And I can't get feedback from readers, One) because I am not sure there are readers, and Two) If I haven't typed up to where we are, how can they say where to go from there? As we can see: I've fallen behind. I did have an idea though. Yesterday I thought about illustrating a few parts of what's already written, maybe add some pictures to the blog site. I also considered, along this same line of thought: Perhaps I could illustrate and read aloud the story at intervals then post them as well... Do an audio/visual thing. Kinda like those shows that I rarely watched when I was a kid. An illustrator would illustrate a story as they read it aloud. I liked it when they did all the voices. I think it would be best to have more of the story down before I went that far though. I'd also have to design the characters look. Any input on that end (or any that I've discussed) would be much appreciated. 

Morning Tones Set the Days Tune

I am in a great mood. I have woken up for the past few mornings in a fantastic mood. Mr. Peanut and I have started new morning routines that help to set the tone for our entire days. And so far, it Has worked. Granted; it's only been a few days, but... just saying. Part of this morning routine is declaring our intentions for the day and for how we want to feel or what we want to accomplish and setting it in our minds to make it happen. Another aspect of our mornings also now includes exercise. Not alot, we don't always have the time to dedicate to a full workout, but doing something (at least something) is important. Just a short exercise regime. I actually found the short list of things that we do on pintrest, which; I know, I know; I said I didn't like pintrests... I still don't like it when my facebook wall is inundated with "pins" from one person and I'm all... Good Grief, I Don't Give a Rip!!! but that's a discussion for another time. 
After setting this spectacular tone for the day, we are then ready to attack anything. I am getting LOTS of work done and am determined  to actually make a dent in my to-do list that I've mentally prepared for my day... Because (not only because, but it helps) we also have a short nightly routine too. We list off at least 5 success for the day. When I was kid, mom had us say something we were thankful for before going to bed each night when we said our prayers. It's not a bad habit to get into. Like in White Christmas when Bing Crosby sings about Counting your Blessings instead of Sheep to fall asleep. You should try it. Positive attitude, positive reinforcement, positive outlook. Out with the Negativity... Ha! It's not easy. I myself am a natural pessimist and see the negative in everything, but for years I have been trying to be the "Optimistic Pessimist" and I LOOK for that silver lining. The constant positivity on the regular helps. 

Sharing Holidays and Occasions

Once again, it is my birthday month, and said birthday is only a few days away now. And I, once again, am trying to not build myself up to let myself down. However; like always, I am not quite succeeding. I have imparted to Mr. Peanut, exactly how important this occasion is, and he is attempting to get the day off of work so that he can make it as special as possible. This brings us to the issue of his employers. We won't know until this evening if he'll be able to spend any time with me or not. Seeing as the big day is on Monday and today is Saturday, this simple fact has made it Nigh impossible to plan anything. Thus injuring my psyche and disappointing me before the fact. I have tried to busy myself with other things to think about, to no avail. For; they all lead back to this one specific conundrum. For instance: I have been in search of the proper attire for the  events unplanned. This has proved most difficult, due entirely to the fact that the events are unplanned, and cannot be planned until we have his schedule. Not only is this difficult; it is downright unnerving. I spent an entire day looking for something that I couldn't put my finger on. I can't even describe what it is I am looking for because I don't know the purpose yet for which I need it. I am now out of time to purchase something that is unknown. I am also unable to create that thing because I have no inkling to what it should look like in the least. Even if the day gets planned this evening for Monday, I will still be unable to procure the proper attire before the date in question. Sunday is out, and Monday is not only the day of, but also a National holiday. Thus making the entire previous weekend difficult in the very least. 
Which brings me to another point. I am all for Memorial Day being a wonderful and Thanks filled occasion, but it is again, exceedingly difficult to find appreciation for someone else when one feels so severely under appreciated. A feeling that does come, more often than not, with this most important day of the year. Happy Friggin Birthday to me. 

This is Only a Test.

This linking Ad space to my account is terrible because I forgot what email I used to sign up for the ads and it didn't match what I'm signed into here with... So I get a default split personality. Therefore; this post is now a test, a scientific experiment, so to speak. Let's see how it goes.