Is this only subterfuge, or am I just too irascible

I'm such an idiot. I don't have time for this. But I'll go anyway. I'm really stressing right now. I have soooooo much stuff due this week! I can't keep up with this non-relationship, relationship that we play at. I don't have all the information to do some of my work. My computer is running slow, been on too long. and Then there's you. I can't handle this. I might just break down. or hyperventilate, or flip my lid. Why do you keep doing this too me. I'm so confused. Where do I stand. Why do I even stand? Can I cry now. am I appropriated in that?