Elvis and the candyman are good brothers.

Righteous! now it's 60! Yay! Well, I'm really tired. I get like three hours of sleep a night, I know, I know, my own fault. No one forced me to stay out till one every night. Not like I'm doing homework. But I don't want to fall out of touch with people. I just need to Learn to say no, or manage my time better. Oh well, I've got a week to be finished with the port and my "thesis" and all that jazz. Whoo hoo! Then it's LasVegas. By the way, I still need one more person to go with us. Preferably a guy, so Buzzy won't be out of place, so to speak. I'm open to suggestions. Just needs to be someone I know preferably, and someone that all the rest of us can get along with for four days... That's all for now... TTFN.

-Strictly Business-

Candy canes and sugar-pops

A bullet through my eye

Turpitude

The name of call

Slowly steadily dies.

Retrograde expanses

Pandering to become

Limp and soulless

Sisters of doth

Mothers of emptiness

The children of the open

Tourniquet spinners

Spiders crawling

Upside down into pipes

Created in the boxes

On the corners of giants

Who care not

About the

Insubordination required

Next of kin

Fathers of a hopeless nation

Falling onto your scissors

Gouging

Keeping up with Mr. You

Here it is

A Rat poker lollipop

Created of lust

And greed

For your body

-Soggy Paper (The Right Words)-

I should keep some paper by the shower

That’s where I get the best words

Of all things I need to say to you

The circumstances I want to curse

You’re not the first best friend to break my heart

It has happened times before

I’ve given you a new start

Though you’ve hurt me times before

Why does the pain ache all through my bones?

It starts in my heart and works to my soul

Kind of like candy in a dirty old sock

The very next day, I’m the treat of a pox

Porcelain outlines draw tears on my face

You’ve trampled my heart all over the place

You lock me out cold, outside in the dart

Then you tell me your soul, and cause me to start

I’m afraid of the consequences rendered

Now to be faceless down in the mud

If only you would react as tender

Could we stop the decay of the flood?

The friendship we have is not but a riot

A candy cane serpent is drawing quite near

Sometimes I wish you’d trust me and try

The only thing holding me back is this fear.

-Fingertips-

I long to be in your presence

To have your body touching my fingertips

Take this magnet of you

Release the watch I see

I want to drink you away in

Combine my metaphors

Realities and redundancies

I need your eyes reviewing my lips

To have your body touching my fingertips

Is the Water really that close?

well, It seems they lied to me. That was only 55. UpDate! Well, I got my favorite compliment again! That makes me so Happy! I really can't say more than that on that. I've decided that the song was wrong. It was still good. Lot's of first times for things this week. Good Times! Good Times! it's been fun. a little stupid at times. But Fun none the less. And there's still more to come I fear. Party On! Another thought though. I'd like to find someone who will rent me their couch space.

Singles be wary, Couples beware.

Wow. It tells me that this is my 60th post! Groovy. With this knowledge at hand, I considered reflecting on all that's happened since I began this last October. Then I decided that, that would be stupid. So, rather. I will continue on in my determined nature to attempt to lay down my train of thought as words. I realize that each post has become a tad more ominous than the last. With less and less information given. But, as I said before, this is to protect those parties involved. With all this in mind. I hate Saint Valentines Day. It's another Americanized holiday. Yay! If you think about it, no one really likes it in the state we have it as today. If your single, you feel like crap. If you're not. There's all that stress, The anticipations, and expectations that aren't easily met. Too much like work. But then again, I may be biased. People tend to not have the same judgments based on bias. Like The Italian and his roommates, really have it out for the Nancy Kid. I think that if they tried to be nice to him, and incorporate him in, he might not be that bad. Yes I realize that, he may be a slob. but the vehemence spewed towards him, that he's just supposed to take. It almost hurts me. almost. but then again, my bias does not include any of the circumstantial evidence that they've got in play. I am working solely from word of mouth. But then again, I'm too nice. Haha. well, there's more to that sag-way, but; secrecy is the bases of what'll be broken in that.

Do You Really Wanna Know?

I am so happy. Yesterday went much better than I wasn't exactly anticipating it to be. I wasn't really expecting anything much specifically. It went well. I didn't expect it to be awful, or anything like that. Just not the way it was, I guess. Narrowing it down was hard. And I thank you Buzzy, So much for helping me out. You will never know how much that really means to me. I also was almost taken aback by the way He now speaks with me. As if I'm a real person, a friend, a human being, a cohort... I'm a great listener. and I love it when people want to tell me things that are important to them. I don't want to make it seem like I'm taking anything from this that I'm not. because I'm not. I'm just so.... proud... to be his friend. I would like to have other friends be as close as we are becoming. But so far; I can't bring myself to be myself for anyone else completely. I don't trust that they will take me seriously enough. I don't want to get hurt again. I guess, there's just too much invested here, to do What I've been told I should do. I just have to be who I am, and do what I've promised. For I am the Best Friend, you never yet had. Love Ya!

We really Need crutches

You know, when there's a recommended dosage, and such, you should probably follow it. Wait as long as they tell you to wait. And only take so much. Teehee... I'm feeling a little loopy! I feel great! Save for my Throat and my Nerves... but that can't really be helped. I'm so terrified about today! but am so anticipatory... kewl. I'm not the happiest with my song selection, but I need to appease each party involved, come to a happy medium if you will. that'll work. Cheers!

Karma Policy

well, that's how it goes. Last time I was supposed to sing, I lost my voice. I'm getting sick, my throat is constricting, my glands are swelling, I'm drying out. Not cool. MY stomach is sick, and I am incapable of decision making. I'm really excited. I should just go to bed, and hope I am better in the morning. and pray I'm not worse. Seriously, I don't feel well. my stomach is really icky. I'm never laying on my stomach again. I've heard that before...

Passion for your passion

It's funny how things work out. it's funny how people have their little nuances, how people can be. I like to see people be passionate about things. I like to see people co-existing with each other happily. I like to see people in different walks, with different views, and opinions, getting along in a positive manner, effecting each other in the greater scheme of things. it's a glorious thing to see people learning from one another, and growing into better people due to it.

Cryig out from dramatics and the whelmed.

I'm so tired. I go from this state of; I just want to lie down and sleep for ever, to I am uber hyper due to lack of sleep; Let's keep going! I just want this to all be done. So I can feel normal. I know that the likelihood of what was my formal normalcy was, returning to me. Is far slimmer than one could imaginatively hope for. After all that has happened since I started this quarter. I just keep piling it on, getting busier and busier. shoveling on the drama. filling my time with monotony to change my way of thinking, so I can focus. Whilst relieving myself of the time required to accomplish what is actually important at this time. I'm not saying that the drama that I've gotten myself into is not important. I am merely stating the fact that I can't seem to function with it, or deal with it accordingly. I think I'll just break down soon. That should solve it. Just freak out! then cry. Then do something really stupid. Then move on. or something like that. I haven't decided yet. I haven't had time to think about it. wow! I pretty much just repeated myself again. huh!

Is this only subterfuge, or am I just too irascible

I'm such an idiot. I don't have time for this. But I'll go anyway. I'm really stressing right now. I have soooooo much stuff due this week! I can't keep up with this non-relationship, relationship that we play at. I don't have all the information to do some of my work. My computer is running slow, been on too long. and Then there's you. I can't handle this. I might just break down. or hyperventilate, or flip my lid. Why do you keep doing this too me. I'm so confused. Where do I stand. Why do I even stand? Can I cry now. am I appropriated in that?